Wednesday, December 30, 2009

lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn.

My family's New Year tradition consists of compiling a sort of time capsule-- gathering our favorite pictures, candy bars, newspaper clippings, action figures of the year. We even make a video with us all answering questions like "Jonathan, what's your favorite color? What is your favorite thing about this year?"At least that what it was growing up.

We stopped making videos and measuring ourselves once we realized that our favorite colors don't really change, and we'd rather play with our Barbies and eat the candy bars than put them in a box for a year. I think we still have a foil covered shoe box in the basement from the new Millennium.

Though my family will celebrate New Year's in different parts of the state tomorrow, I wonder what it would be like to make a video and time capsule again. Thus, my post.

As cliche as it may be, 2009 is probably my favorite year of existence thus far. No, I don't have many to compare, but wow, God packed in a lot in 365 days. I have a lot to thank him for, to reflect on, and to give me joy for the new year. Maybe I should make a box and reopen this joy next year, but I'd rather write and share it. I want to celebrate life. Living, breathing, rejoicing in the blessings and the redemption God so gracefully gives.

So, 2009. Let's see.

-My favorite birthday, celebrated with a cake made by Rudy.
-A redeeming trip to the DR.
-My Roo's graduation and necessary celebrations.
-Cedars. Yeah.
- Running those 13.1 miles with my daddy.
-The blessing of Midtown.
- That infamous brownie fight.
- This thing called my European Adventure. Standing at the top of the mountain, under the Eiffel Tower, on the shore of the Baltic Sea, and in O'Hare. All moments I'll never forget.
- Maddox 5. Imogen Heap, Tansley and Jane, Lost, cuddling, and lots of love.
- The blessing of witnessing a couple beautiful weddings.

More than celebrations for myself, I love that so many good things happened to those I love.

-Whit and Jordan tie the knot.
-Jenna conquers law school. Nathan scores a hot job.
- Dad finally turns in his dissertation; Mom starts planning their new life.
- Jonathan starts the college hunt, nailing most things he encounters, including his body.
-The Engaged group grows larger: Steph, Than, Jess, Luke, Amanda, Keith, Ali. Even more find new love.
- Lots have their own overseas adventures.
- Al and TFA. Yesss!
- Many more land fantastic grad school spots. Way to go, my awesomely smart friends.

Wow. I could go on. And on. And the smile would probably start hurting my face. Yes, 2009 was a great year. No to mention that this list doesn't even touch on international events. Obama, anyone?

If I made a box, I would put in this list, a clipping of the unemployment stats, my Russian circus ticket, and the broken ring from Whitney. Celebrated events, shaken life, fun life, and community life.

Yes, this is the new year. Much to anticipate, much for which I should already deliver thanks.

Here we go. Cheers.



Friday, December 25, 2009

oh, holy night.

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains shall he break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

Monday, December 21, 2009

advent.

I love the practice of Advent; of daily meditating on the Christmas story, of delighting in the greater story behind the season. I have read so many articles lately that discuss how the anticipation of Christmas means so much more than just waiting for the Holidays. As Christians, we live in Advent-- waiting for the day when redemption comes, when all is restored.

Over the past week, I have written numerous essays for multiple job applications. All demand that I provide specifics of how my experiences and skills apply directly to this or that position. Draining at times, articiluating just how my personality matches this organization, I find the practice very worthwhile. Though the applications are somewhat similar, I am forced to analyze and interpret my life experiences in light of the organization's goals and mission. "Yes, I believe in economic liberty; yes, let me tell you how I live out excellence; yes, of course I am a hard worker."

At times I feel like I throw up my heart and passions on the page. I want to scream "I WANT RESTORATION!" and hope the economic development organization can interpret that as "Obviously this job is perfect for me and I'll do everything possible to make it work." Instead, I must demonstrate how my abroad experience showed me how I want to be involved in the nitty gritty of eradicating poverty, and how my desire for justice and peace means I must engage international policy. It's hard to minimize my life to 250 words.

It's hard to show that this whole idea of Advent is why I want to change the systems, help the individual, and approach the challenges of social justice. I want redemption so much, I will do everything possible to bring this aspect of the Kingdom down now. I want so much for the hurting to be restored, the oppressed to be uplifted. I cannot wait-- cannot do Advent-- for this. My head hurts as I try to demonstrate my passion and desire to give Hope to others, and my heart aches and I know I cannot do it, even through these organizations.

"Thy Kingdom come.."


Monday, October 5, 2009

God was right.

I love this community.

I love these girls, the guys, the lessons we are learning through each other.

I love the challenges we face, the dirt we have to clean from under our fingernails and the fog we are often forced to clear.

I love that we are real; that crazy stuff goes down, and yet we still laugh and love at the end of the day.

I love how we can act like five-year-olds, and talk about war and peace and justice. I love that we grow with, through, in, and among each other. It's beautiful.



Monday, August 3, 2009

things unchanged.

It's funny how change can become so ordinary.

I soared to new heights this summer; experienced more than I thought possible and embraced ideas I have never considered. Doing the program was one of the best decisions of my life.

I returned to the familiar last night. Nothing has changed. Just me. The European countryside and lifestyle became my life-- I was so used to the person I was becoming, I didn't realize I had changed, or that life around me wasn't the norm. Now I am back and realize just how much I had adjusted to that life and will be forced to readjust.

Yes, I know I just got back last night. Less than 24 hours ago. These are my immediate thoughts, likely to change, but I desperately hope I will never ever forget the lessons I learned and the people I grew to love.

cheers, ladies and gents.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

going, going, gone.

http://pubpol.duke.edu/centers/dcid/degree/pidp/specializations/policy.php

Sunday, June 7, 2009

a little photo update.

I have limited internet access while in Germany, but I promise to update soon. I can't wait to spill about everything I've been learning. Promise it will be soon, but for now, a few pictures to give you evidence of my European adventures. 

 
Me and Kristen at St. Basil's in Red Square.


At the Hill of Crosses in Lithuania. Amazing amazing place.


Caroline, me, and Amber at the Baltic Sea!!

cheers!

Sunday, May 17, 2009

letter writing is NOT a lost art.

As most of you know, I am making an attempt to be a world traveler this summer. 

Though I am stoked to leave, I will sorely miss all of you. I'll be sure to update on here and I will do my best to not bore you with only travel stories. I have Skype, but will have limited internet access. Thus, I have provided a link to a list of the addresses of my destinations. If you are so inclined, I would love to hear from you. 

More importantly, I covet your prayers for safety and sanity. 

I'll be gone for 11 weeks, have 6 flights and many train rides.  If culture shock has to happen, I'm hoping it will wait until I get back to the 'Ville. I am so ready to go, and I pray I can be receptive to everything positive and enlightening. I hope to find and be Jesus halfway around the world.

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

Bon Voyage!

http://www.messiah.edu/departments/business/ibi/forms/documents/IBI2009ITINERARY.pdf



Wednesday, May 13, 2009

where did all the passion go?

What if everyone in the world was passionate about things that mattered? Things that were beneficials; things that make a difference? 

What if everyone in the world denied themselves one indulgence for the sake of another person?

Religion aside, where did all the passion go?

Friday, April 24, 2009

on justice and unity.

Most of you have seen this. Most of you are angry, and most of you have posted blogs similar to this. However, for those of you who haven't, I seek your attention and advice. Cedarville has recently been going through some "changes", and it has come at the expense of many students.

Let me begin with saying that I support the mission of Cedarville. However, I often do not support the daily decisions made by some key trustees, admins, and students.

I find healthy discourse at Cedarville very very difficult at times. Being united does not mean we have to be uniform. In fact, I would argue the opposite. Christ's disciples were all from different backgrounds, had different careers, and surely held different political views. However, they all passionately loved Christ. How is it that our university fails to acknowledge this?

Let us engage in healthy discourse and discussion that propels us to make intelligent decisions and to intentionally and wholeheartedly follow Christ. When the universtiy fails to create an environment conducive to this, or worse yet--try to prevent this from happening-- I find the result to be devastating and contrary to the mission of Christ.

I seek justice for our students. I seek unity-- not uniformity of our ideas-- but unity for Christ followers to delight in the love of Christ and each other.

Thus said, the real story....

Cedarville has recently decided to censor the student newspaper. This may not seem like a big deal, but it has had regrettable consequences. The act of filtering and cutting many articles totally undermines the purpose of Cedars existence. The newspaper will be moved to the Journalism department in the fall, but the faculty of that department have declared Cedars "too liberal" and will suspend publication at least for a semester. When things can be "brought under control", then a student newspaper will once again exist.

As a result of the censorship, our faculty advisor stepping down (he is stuck between a rock and a hard place), and the stern remarks of trustees, the other editors and myself have decided to not publish our last issue. The following letter is our response to the entire situation.

So now, students are upset. Some students, that is. Others could care less. Now, I am deciding what to do next. I think awareness is huge. This kind of censorship with this motivation is not just, and something needs to be done. We cannot suppress thoughtful discussion, we cannot suppress free speech. Now what?

I'll post more thoughts later, but I would love to hear your thoughts.

Da letter:

Students, Faculty and Staff,

We, the Cedars staff, regret to inform you that we will not publish our final issue.

The public relations department, directed by university trustees and some administrative officials, nowreviews, approves, censors and cuts the content of your student newspaper. Public relations employeesapproved every published article beginning with our seventh issue, the second issue of this spring semester.

Review and censorship by public relations breaks the operating model of Cedars, which was approved by the administrative council on Oct. 9, 2006. It outlines: “The student editors prepare copy for print and take responsibility for making decisions, along with the Faculty Adviser, for what ends up in print.”

As student editors for a student newspaper, we understand and accept some degree of fair and reasonable screening, as outlined in paragraph three of the Cedars operating model: “The Faculty Adviser reviews copy at his or her discretion in advance of publication and is responsible for the contents.” But the PR department’s excessive attempt to censor Cedars necessarily violates our operating model, and the Cedars staff has thus decided to cease publication.

Cedars has made incredible strides this year. Among them, we redesigned our Web site, started to translate our online content into Spanish, hosted video and photography, and sent students to an investigative news conference featuring investigative reporters from CNN, The New York Times, and The Columbus Dispatch.

We are disappointed that some readers often evaluate the entire newspaper based on Viewpoint pieceswith which they disagree. Cedars often pairs the most controversial opinions with opposing opinions, and the Cedars staff encourages and works closely with interested readers to publish letters to the editor.

In order to prepare students to affect the world for Christ, Cedarville University must equip students to work in mainstream media. Further, and perhaps more important, our student body must be able to think critically about a variety of issues, formulate cogent responses, and enjoy a forum in which they may share them. Review by the public relations department undermines our ability to think critically and engage culture.

We grieve the loss of free expression and healthy discourse once found in your newspaper, traits thatought to characterize all vibrant institutions of higher learning.

Sincerely yours,
The Cedars staff,
Joshua Saunders, Managing Editor
Michael Shirzadian, News Editor
Rebecca High, Viewpoints Editor
Daniel Sizemore, A&E Editor
Naomi Washatka, Design Editor

“Where there is much desire to learn, there of necessity will be much arguing, much writing, manyopinions; for opinion in good men is but knowledge in the making.” – John Milton, Areopagitica
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for more reading:
http://chronicle.com/temp/email2.php?id=ydzqSHptgsHpmY9qRdCgCfjxVnfGrShq
http://blog.christianitytoday.com/ctliveblog/archives/2009/04/cedarville_stud.html

shalom.

Friday, April 10, 2009

on hope.

I have been back from the Dominican Republic for more than a month.

I desperately miss it.

I would I could express how much my heart ached while I was there; I wish I could tell you the stories of Damairus, of Angel, and of Israel. I wish I could show you how much they hurt.

Tomorrow I leave to go home for Easter break. I am so spoiled. I am so spoiled to be able to wake up in a warm house, to eat until I am full, and to celebrate with pagan gifts. How can I have all of this when they have so little? How can I have all of this and miss the hope that they so easily understand?

Hope.

Hope is the essence of Easter. Hope is the thing that spurs dreams, that makes love possible, and that keeps my faith alive. Damarius had such a deep understanding of the hope of her salvation-- hope that has kept her family alive, helped her during her illness, and will continue to spur her toward completeness.

Where is my hope? Do my luxaries take away from feeling hope of great things, of feeling the hope and joy and intrigue of my salvation?

"Almighty God, we beseech thee graciously to behold this thy family, for which our Lord Jesus Christ was contented to be betrayed, and given up into the hands of sinners, and to suffer death upon the crossl who now liveth and reigneth with thee and Holy Ghost ever, one God, world without end. Amen."

Let this give us hope.

Friday, February 27, 2009

more than a sunburn.

i leave in 24 hours.
i hope it hurts when i get there.
i hope it is wrenching to leave.
i hope i can take it.

Monday, February 23, 2009

to be able to breathe again.

Yesterday, my dog jumped on my bed and watched as I typed a paper on my laptop. I promise. She was concentrating as hard as I was, and when I looked at her, she stared right back.

She's so cool.

The dog is never allowed on my bed, or any other piece of furniture in the house. But, I miss her dearly while I am at school, so I allowed her to cuddle-- on the condition that she didn't touch any of my pillows. Dog slobber is disgusting, and I just can't handle it on my pillows.

I was so content to just sit and type and watch her fall asleep. I love the moments in life when everything appears to be on pause, and the only thing that seems out of the ordinary is the sound of breathing...or the droopiness of a dog's eyelids.

I do love being around people, but I love being alone with my thoughts, with my dog, and with God. To just be is a beautiful thing.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Thursday, February 5, 2009

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

...to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever. 

Amen

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Oh, the irony.

I am in complete support of the "anti-facebookers" out there. I commend you for following your convicitions. For being Christ-like in your endeavors, and for striving toward more holisitic and intentional relationships.

Ironic though, that we are now all communicating through this electronic outlet. Ironic that my first post in many months comes as a result of knowing that my CU friends are now online.

I hate that.

I use this blog to post random thoughts at random times and to follow the insightful findings of my dear friends at home and beyond. Now, since others have joined the network, I'll use it to read their thoughts, and to maybe gain insight that I fail to see in the real world.

These online resources are just that-- tools. Talk to me about my facebook convictions-- I would love to talk to you about yours. I refuse to let this, or any other online network, replace real relationships. Let us use this to spur real conversations, to spur research into new ideas, and to compel each other to be more like Christ. Let us use this time and these resources to learn to be more like Christ and get others to do the same.

I will continue to post nonsensical things and to read blogs late at night for hopes of an inspiring tidbit. I will also continue to challenge you on your electronic use, and hope you do the same for me.

Let's talk. Let's do life, together.